I'm standing in my kitchen at 3 am having a heart to heart with my cat, groggy, tired, and feeling awful about myself, I immediately want to dive into a pint of Haagen-Dazs, but I've recently broken up with ice cream so know this is a just a moment of self-loathing. This last month has been a whirlwind of highs and lows and lots of stress in-between. I'm currently working on my Master's degree in Nutrition and it's a very tough, fast paced, wonderful program. I'm learning everything there is to know about nutrition and I'm excited to be on this adventure and all of the amazing opportunities that will come from it, but it's hard. Really hard. I've been on an awful sleep schedule, staying up late nights doing group projects with people all over the world, going to bed at 4 am and waking up at 11 am. It seems I do school work all of the time and feel like I cannot keep up in the blogging world.
My friends are all moving at warp speeds and I'm in the back seat like, "Hey, I'm still here too!" My goal is to be able to blog, make food recipe videos full time, and teach yoga and fitness classes, but it's not an easy transition. The road is scary and filled with many what-ifs. I'm doing my best to not let other people's wonderful success cloud mine, but the comparison game is real and heartbreaking.
My Dad has always said to me: "To thy known self-be true. Don't be like anyone else, because you are different, you have what other's don't. Focus on that instead of focusing on what everyone else is doing." It's scary and daunting and very overwhelming at times. I have not been in this blogging world as long as my other friends have, I have not had the time to perfect my craft just yet. I know that in time, it will be my turn too. I work tirelessly on my blog and school and my business and sometimes it seems as if I'm doing everything wrong. Do you guys ever have these feelings of self-doubt? The ones that creep into your mind at 3 am when everything looks blurry and sleep is desperately needed. I've always been a person with vaulting ambition. I act before I think and that motto has always worked wonders for me. I believe that if you think too much, you can talk yourself out of anything. Just this week, an amazing opportunity knocked on my door that could be life changing and could take everything next level for me. I typed the words yes before my brain could stop me because I knew if I sat on it for anytime, my mind would say no. Over thinking is the devil and when it begins to happen, walk away from it. I believe in saying yes before you have the experience because that is the only way you will grow. I'm not in this business to stay the same, I'm here to grow and be better and meet amazing friends along the way.
Self-doubt has the power to cripple me. It begins so small, that I barely notice it The triggers are scrolling through other people's Instagram feeds and it starts there. I start to think crippling thoughts, that I cannot do what they can do and I'm not good enough. None of that is true of course, I can do anything anyone else can do! You know the quote by Thomas Edison: "If we did all the things we are capable of doing, we would literally astound ourselves." I have that hanging up on my wall above my computer where I blog in my office. I stare at it multiple times per day because it's true. For example, I thought I would never get through this session of school with the boat-loads of research projects and pages and pages of research and writing. But I did it! We wrapped yesterday and it's done (for now) I got through it, even though my brain the entire time, was doubting my ability to get it done. Not my entire brain, just the part that's mean, the one that sits on your shoulder on the left and taunts and gnaws at you.
I've developed some tricks to quell those mean voices and feelings of self-doubt.
1. Do yoga! Get on your mat, get out of your head, and just flow. Or meditate for a few minutes, but I find movement helps me more. Move through the emotions and let those loathing thoughts come and go. After a quick 20-minute yoga session, I always feel better and lighter.
2. Make something beautiful that's food and eat it. I made the best smoothie bowl last night with some Perfect Keto MCT Oil Powder and it was life changing! This stuff is amazing, gives me zing's of energy, and sets me up for a full day of research. I took Perfect Keto's MCT Oil every day this week and have noticed a huge difference in my energy levels and focus. Perfect Keto's MCT Oil Powder is made from coconuts and that's it! Perfect Keto MCT Oil Powder is also flavorless so you can add it to your bulletproof coffee, smoothies, soups, pasta, really anything you can think of! If you haven't tried MCT Oil you should because it gives you a clean energy feeling without the crash later. You can order Perfect Keto here and use my coupon code: FITTY15 for 15% off your order until May 8th. I'm also hosting a giveaway with the awesome folks of Perfect Keto to give away a canister of their MCT Oil Powder, come follow me on Instagram for more info on the giveaway!
3. Get outside! One of the fastest ways to get out of your own head is to go outside and even better if you bring your furry friend along with you. My darkest days have been cured by going on a long, fun, trail run with Roxy. We just hit the trails and go until our lungs can't breathe anymore. Okay, I'm being slightly dramatic with the whole not breathing things, but running works! And if you don't run, walk. Or do yoga outside, or take your workout outside. I'm currently building a yoga deck in my back yard for just this reason. Get off your phone, and get outside and breathe in the fresh air. I'm also really good at outdoor dance parties and can dance like it's 1999!
4. Clean your house. Okay so this one isn't so fun, but piles of clutter make me very anxious, creating more self-doubt in my mind. A clear space is a clear mind and clearing out anything that you don't need from your home will help calm you down and make you feel less anxious. The first room I always clean in my house is my kitchen because it's the room (beside's my office) that I spend most of my time in. Clean up and you'll feel better after, I promise!
5. Journal or blog. Writing every day, even if it's just on post-it's or in a journal can help take any mind from self-doubt to motivation. Write our your goals, dreams, and what you want daily and make those things happen! Anytime you are feeling down, go back to your list of goals and check off the ones you've made happen. You'd be surprised how enlightening it is to see your goals accomplished on paper. Start with one goal a day and then add to the list from there. They can be as small as trying a new workout class to as big as finally contacting that PR company about a writing partnership.
Check out my yummy Spring Smoothie Bowl that's super easy to make and super healthy! I added a scoop of Perfect Keto MCT Oil Powder for an extra zing of energy!
I really hope these tips help draw you away from self-doubt or even help when you have those crazy moments of stress. At the end of the day we are all in this together and reaching out to friends and trying new things can help a lot in doubtful times.